MY PERSONAL STOP MESSAGE
It is recommended you do not even touch this kind of truth about life on the down side if you are the ole’ fashion, with its philosophy thinking, very religious individual living with the rest on these lands. It is believed this may be too much for you to try and endure. If indeed you are strong enough in whatever faith you live and you seek to know the thinking pattern and life style of the many suffering the negatives of life then by all means endure this one depiction of a gay, black brother in its diary kind of format. It will allow you the truth about life lived by just one unique individual among the many under the guidelines of the negative life so many live. This one life gives reference to many other lives encountered in the same wilderness and the suffering that gets so involved and intense. Be aware that what you are about to endure is a true encounter of only one individual having made it to hopeful safe grounds after the storm. That we as humans make mistakes on levels many would think could never happen. And for you who may be looking for a story of life similar to your own this may be what you seek; especially if you may be thinking of taking your own dirty laundry to the wash house. Many in this category could use some real inspiration to help make that one final and as well real decision to make that change. The truth about making that turnaround a reality will hopefully be endured in this story. For educators, doctors and others wanting more of the scope or picture of life in such a negative world and its thinking process as well, this story may pinpoint a more complete and overall view thus giving those in the mental, medical, counseling and other related fields a better focus on dealing more successfully in this area of life. It is especially noted in this story how those in the study field could maybe look more deeply into the desire for change and how so many years of such a pattern of life has its effects on making such a change. It is known how there continues to be the successful work to date in this area taken from expressed and open such stories and its experiences and I am sure more unique experiences are wanted in this area of study. Pay particular attention to the education level allowing for depiction of the negatives and even positives in life that lead to decision-making. For the one looking for entertainment this just may get you some satisfaction but may leave you with questions if indeed you make it all the way through without the excitement turning into the boredom of not really finding that continuous nasty plot sought after. This continues to be my way of making sure I stay alert and on top of a new world free of the past – a past I term “Yesterday”.
AFTER MY PERSONAL STOP MESSAGE
After all the trauma of the finale ending another’s life of just another addiction came the challenge for real life. Salvaging the past as best as possible and as mentioned the “moving on” entailed and continues to take the prior mentioned strength and courage needed to victory. If you were able to endure the finale of the addiction and the work for a new life given to me in the form of a challenge than I present to you even more and maybe seen as precise entries with the accomplishment of life after the addiction. Pay particular attention to the flow of life now after all the hard addiction as it gets rather mentally involved. Here in these entries finds maybe the unique building from the ground up to where life is seen after again “yesterday”. It is hoped there is found the expression of the overall and specific encounters taking me through the laying of the first-time foundation and the building process specifically with all of its elements both positive and especially negative along with all the time it took to make facing up and dealing with life a huge part of that challenge found after again all the years away from the nightmare of addiction. Pay particular attention to the kind of redundancy that finds maybe new meaning in my life as I travel through this building process. Yesterday’s history of the ignorance demeaning my sexuality will hopefully find how dealing honestly with it opened up much of the building of my new first time successful empire of love for a new me. Wondering if such progress can be recognized by all entities of life especially that arena looking for answers to questions of taking on that challenge after the high? Making that emotional connection and staying abreast of this challenge may indeed help another taking on their own challenge and especially knowing of such a challenge when presented. Such can be a difficult time many times ending in rejection and thee ole ‘stuffing of continued pain’ lived in that nightmare nobody in his or her right enough mind ever wants. Wonder if you can see the bright future unfolding so wonderfully still yet for me in my life after the work done to date? Wonder if it can be noted the acceptance of and the desire for as well as the progression toward it all now after over two decades of this journey through a challenge put before me many times during my life and accepted on that day of surrendering yesterday for the success taking real shape today? Wonder if there could be, for those having never been addicted, the kind of empathy allowing for a perfect world to stay the myth it is and carrying on the best we as human beings on this earth can be? Don’t believe there is a “making it to the top” but instead making the best of life made under the circumstances we all live together in on this earth. Yes; I am very, very proud of my success to date. It is felt such was planned for me to achieve. I express our Higher Power who I believe dwells in all of us. I speak of this entity outside of the church but I hope with great respect for the number of religions believing and knowing of our Higher Power “His” being everywhere…
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